Saturday, May 25, 2013

The Hard Parts

We're preparing for our move on July 4th. We go to MS and then sometime in August we will move overseas. We are organizing our belongings. Preparing for garage sales. Getting our medical screenings completed. I ordered a pair of snow boots today. Daniel is working on his teaching certification. He continues to work 3 days a week and I am working 2 nights a week. I am trying to continue to lead a normal life for Liam - playing, swimming, and trying to not let him realize I've been going through all of his toys and getting rid of over half of them. I miss our dog, Jack, who is no longer our dog. He went to do a "trail run" with some friends of ours and we decided since he adjusted so well that he should just stay. Tonight I've been going through things, packing boxes, and posting some of our bigger items online to sell. We found a trailer to borrow so we can take a big load of things home the first week of June.

I talked to a friend recently and she is moving at the end of the month. Other friends are in the process of moving as we speak. That's part of the seminary life. We went through this last summer and the summer before that. People come and people go. They leave their mark in your life and move on. I can't really complain because we are doing the same thing to our friends that we are leaving behind. But it's still really sad.

Yesterday Daniel and I were talking while driving and I said I was going to miss Mexican food. He said he's going to miss Chic-Fil-A. We are going to miss our families terribly. Our friends terribly. Things will happen in America that we won't get to be a part of. Birthdays. Anniversaries. Parties. Church events. Graduations. Weddings. Births. And those are just the happy things. We won't be here to help when family members get sick. When storms (literal and figurative) go through and our families need help picking up the pieces.

When I talk about our move, I always try talk about it in a positive light. I mean, this is what we came to Fort Worth to do eventually, right? This is what I've been preparing myself for since I was in high school. I keep saying, I'll wait to do this till closer to time - well that time is here. In a matter of about 6 weeks we are leaving Fort Worth - ready or not. We are stepping out on faith that we will get visas in a timely manner. That everything will just "work out" with money and plane tickets and timing. We don't have the money to rent a truck to move some of our things home. We don't have the money to buy 3 plane tickets. We don't have a back up plan ready in case something happens and we don't get to move overseas. We will be living off of our families for 4+ weeks until we have visas and plane tickets in our hands. Our friends who are already in our city have signed a contract for an apartment that they cannot afford unless we make it there and help them pay for it.

I don't really know where else to go with this, but I do want to say that I am very excited about this move. And at the same time I'm scared. It's going to be different. I'm not going to know the language. I'm not going to recognize half the food. I may not have my family and friends there, but I will have a team there that will become friends and be like family. I'm not going to have an American church worship service to attend. But what an amazing opportunity we will have to share the Good Word with people who have never had the opportunity to hear! We will be living by our faith and looking for God to show us daily where we are to serve and who needs to hear His Name.

In the midst of my sadness today, the Lord provided some light about our move. I was browsing facebook and someone had posted a link to a website about sponsoring children overseas. It got me thinking about looking for orphanages in our city, so I did. To my amazement I found an organization that has orphanages in several cities including ours! AND it's a Christian organization that isn't hiding behind a secular name - they out front tell people they are Christians and that is why they care for the orphans and the disabled children. And they work alongside the government freely. So I put in a call and sent an email to find out how I could help when we arrive in August. The director emailed me that same day and said she would love to have extra hands to love on the kids and that my nursing skills will be very valuable. I'm so stinkin' excited! Thankful for the little reminders from God about the joy and purpose in this move even when I'm drowning in my own sorrows.

Please continue to pray for us. Pray for my sanity and attitude (especially toward Daniel as when I get stressed, I'm not always very nice to him). Pray for our family and their acceptance of our leaving. Pray for our finances. Pray for our city and our team and the people we will be sharing with.

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